Some Late Night Thoughts

Well Ladies and Gentlemen we are officially in the teens…. 19, but still!!! I can't believe how quickly it   has came. I think back to where it all began and how one simple thought, led to another, which led to a prayer, which led to an action, which led to exactly where my Heavenly Father wants me to be.  I couldn't be more blessed to be able to take 18 months of my life and devote it to bringing forth the true and everlasting gospel. 

My heart is full tonight. It's a little late, but that's alright. Usually my best thoughts come after 1 or 2 in the morning. I have been struggling with exactly where and what the Lord wants me to share on Sunday. I'm starting to think I'm going back to my old ways as an athlete and over thinking the "game" you could say. Being afraid of turning the ball over instead of being confident and taking that shot, or being aggressive and driving to the basket, and not being worried about being blocked. 

Today all of those worries seemed to disappear. Was it because I was up half the night studying and praying for guidance and courage, or I guess it could of been because I decided to get up out of bed early and attend the temple. I don't know the exact reason behind it all, but I don't really need too. I know that my burdens and worries have been made light because of my Savior Jesus Christ. If we do our part, he will not leave us alone to suffer. He understands what is in our heart. 

I wish I could say I'm all geared up and ready to go for Sunday, but that would be a joke in itself. Neil L. Anderson said in a conference talk "Fear and Faith cannot coexist in our hearts at the same time". I think I was struggling so bad and worrying so much because of this exactly. I was choosing to be scared, to have my thoughts directed more to hoping I don't sound stupid, or what others think. I have figured out now that I can't do that, it doesn't really matter what others think. I have said it before, and I'm sure I will say it again.. probably at this time in a few short weeks. I am choosing Faith not Fear. I trust that whatever I am supposed to say and do the Lord will lead me through it. 

My worries right now are probably different from a lot of yours, but I can tell you one thing thats for certain. You have someone to turn to. D&C 58:4 "For after MUCH tribulation come the BLESSINGS. Wherefore the day cometh that ye shall be crowned with much glory; the hour is not yet, but is nigh at hand" All you have to do is ask. D&C 4:7 "Ask, and ye shall receive; knock and it shall be opened unto you. Amen" I pray for you all that are struggling, not necessarily that your burdens may be made light, but that you can find peace and comfort through your Savior Jesus Christ. He is the only person in this world that has walked in your shoes. He has been there before, and he is there to take your hand and help you through.

Hugs and Loves!!! :)

Mishae!